I’m going to start this post by saying that I need electricity. I need money just to eat and live like you do.
Well, I’m a bit bored. I was never a long-term planning person. If there is still air to breathe I’m fine. It’s not like anyone can take that away.
The thing is, I fell in love and in fairness, it was great. I wouldn’t even change the horror of the last years constant kicking in the balls if I’m honest. The thing is, I met my ex with nothing in a random place and the most important thing to me at the time was just meeting them.
Now things are crazy different. That world is all over and reconciled. But really I just exist now. I work to pay the bills, I have enough saved to do something special one day. The only problem is I don’t ever do that special thing because of the leftover need from my old life for financial security.
In this case, I’m thinking of just smashing this life to pieces again, packing a bag, and seeing what happens.
I’m just bloody older… And at the moment, the ‘be careful’ side of my mind which likes its hot showers, plentiful food, and sea view apartment quite likes the world I have.
In this case, what is more important to you? Living life or taking a chance and going into something completely different?